Tuesday, April 14, 2009
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Drop some comment or tag me in this blog ! =))
Enjoy !!!
YYY
im lOving iiu .
10:59 PM
Saturday, November 29, 2008
i guess its all over..
back to starting point..
i hate this feeling..
-ended-
im just like a fool.
Goodbye!
Labels: starting point`ended`FOOL
YYY
im lOving iiu .
5:42 PM
Saturday, October 25, 2008
no one noes wad we really are thinking.
we wanna be the miracle maker.
but the reality had knock us down.
listening to 'image me without you'
i miss you suddenly...
full of tots in my mind too.
problems i had.
negative thinking i had.
stubborn thinking i had.
feeling down.
misunderstanding by others?
hu can i pour to?
i told u.
but no response was from u.
no care-ness from u at all.
im so lost of words.
and i decide not to trouble u so much bout me.
cus ur reaction will only disappoint me.
so i chosen to lock my everything up.
u always tot i did not care bout ur feelings.
u always tot i did not stand in ur shoes n think.
u always tot im caring for myself only.
doesnt mean i kept quiet means i agreed to everything.
somethings doesnt need to be shown.
i always believe
if someone really understand u
they wont hold any suspicious or negative thinking on u.
if it is so,
take out n speak.
not hiding within urself.
ownself have ur thinkings
start thinking positive n assuming
when everything starts to turn bad
den brings out to talk
it will be too late by then.
some things im really tired to clarify.
some things im really tired to explain.
i may be in the wrong to keep dumb.
wad is the cause of this?
u should noe better den me isnt it?
even if i chosen to voice out?
wad will happen?
u wud say i did not care bout ur feelings
or u yourself will keep dumb.
its been a long time since i had this fear feeling
it came back once again
i tried hiding,
but my name is still called
'KE XIN !'
my heart pound fast...
wad am i suppose to do to escaspe this scary feeling from u?
i tried to ask someone for help.
i tried to voice out.
but to my surprised..
u dun care at all.
U wud only use ur thinkings on me
u wud only use ur strength on me
cant u just sit down n listen to me?
cant u?
will it be better to use ur force?
i dun understand.
i miss him ..
Please note: my post does NOT refer to one person only.
NO MIS-UNDERSTANDING please
YYY
im lOving iiu .
10:06 AM
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Douu`Bann - Just sitting beside
右手边 sang by 光良
静静地坐在你的身边
还会有多少这样的时间
我要迎着这窗外的光线
我要迎着这窗外的光线
牢牢的记住你微笑的侧脸
我说了离别不会伤悲
这是我对你唯一的欺骗
因为我最喜欢你的双眼
那么美 不适合掉眼泪
你要好好的去飞
不需要对我想念
我会默默地留下右手边的座位
有一天 当你看过世界
再决定你降落的地点
而我也会继续地
奔驰在这长长的街
左手边是我的心
右手边没有谁
为了你
再寂寞我都可以成全
因为我相信
说过了再见
一定会再见
左手边 sang by 郭美美
风吹过蓝天
在下雨之间
云能飞多远
爱它偶尔很甜
偶尔也很咸
我已经体验
我们来回的悠闲
有一些已经不见
这些年 Oh
hey 你说的明天
是一种信念
还是封信件
对 爱不是阴天
也不是明天
它好难分辨
可是我的心里面
有种感觉很特别
没人了解
我走在左边
你的左边
看得见幸福的平原
也许你并不会察觉
这就是我的 无声的冒险
我走过晴天 阴天或雨天
那几年就叫做永远
这一切消失之前
我会对自己说
我要永远
永远在你左手边
the Right & Left Hand.
i guess you must be wondering why am i so direct n heartless to actually voice out
GIVE UP
i've my reason.
我给你最后的疼爱是手放开
i know the harder we hold
the more miserable we will be
i noe the both of us are actually tired
i noe the both of us actually dunno wad we are supposed to do
just like u said
we cant go back to the past
its true
i didnt say it out easily
i noe eu are really xing ku
it pains me to see u far away from my side
it pains me to see u being the one to give in
i hate to see u hiding ur cries under ur blanket
i hate to see u hiding ur tears with ur big laughter n smile
i hate to see u act as if nothing happens!
i tot at least u would hold me back that night.
i tried to walk slower..
a little slower..
down the stairs...
no reaction from u..
and i noe.
u agreed too!
maybe having me as ur ahhdouu
the job is too stressful to u
so this ahhdouu is going to apply a no pay leave
is it granted?
i dunno when ill be back..
maybe after ur words to me?
maybe after u tell me
"please come back?"
maybe after some things?
i dunno..
i just miss u so...
Li Sheng Jie -手放开
seems really suit..
i hope u noe i chosen to do it this way is becos
i wish u can go further.
SMILE ... for the sweet and happy memories
FROWN ... for yesterday's unfortunate
GRIEVE ... for things that happened
MISS ...for the closeness before
RELIEVED ... for at least you did tried you best
must be surprised why i noe this phrase dedicated by Miss Lee Ahhbann?
yes! its ME !
i found it !
where did u placed it?
yes!
in #234 dustbin !
i kept it !
its really a good describe.
you may be thinking i tot im too unfortunate
or too pityful?
no... seriously no..
just like you said..
i dun understand you
you dun understand me.
and from that night.
i was shocked to see this true colours of you
you are too unfamiliar to me
you are so different
it shocks me alot.
your reaction.
your words.
your movement.
i tried to save it if you notice.
but u do it your way.
just wanted to tell you
its the first time i did not cried for our sistership
should i said im strong enuff?
or ...?
i actually hold back successfully in front of him.
its true im heart pain at least.
u always choose to kept quiet and
let nature take its course
so i chosen to step forward.
our sistership anniversary` 16o2o9 - do u still rmb ?
just wanted to say.
U are still my Lee Ahh Bann !
Not my Kelly Lee !
i dun like Kelly Lee at all!
wad i love the most is still
Ahh Bann Lee Xiao Wei !
You will always be!
Ahh Bann is a name i gave you
and i hope you would hold it forever
the 'Thanks for everything; Tops
The 'Xiang You Zou, Xiang Zuo Zo' Key Chains
the 'Ink' bag
the 'Letters'
The 'Photos'
The 'Army skirt'
the '10 paper boats'
the 'panty'
the Melody shirt'
the everything n everything..
Keeps well...
ill want to see it one day.
Smile Aplenty like YOU always were in the past
No faking is allowed !
You're unreplaceable .... <3
YYY
im lOving iiu .
12:10 AM
Friday, October 10, 2008
Hey Kexin
How are you, Kexin
Kexin, Good Night!
Good Morning, Kexin
Hi Kexin.
Ke Xin, where are you.
----
all the 'Ke Xin' that is called
i felt so unfamiliar
hearing this name
it just seems so mo sheng
i dunno why
i just felt this name too unfamiliar
im not suiting this name anymore...
why wud i have this feel?
i dun understand..
YYY
im lOving iiu .
1:45 AM
Wednesday, October 08, 2008
had a long chat with you - 2 hours
im more clearer with my road now
im more clear on wad to do now
the stubborn side of me
the changes of me from the past till now
the kind of sistership we are gaining for
the kind of sistership we are looking for
the negative thinking we had
the positive thinking we had
the 'standing in each other' shoes.
the words that makes each other turn dumb.
the hurtful feeling we gave each other
the small actions of us that brightens our days
the bit by bit 'jiayoous' we had for our friendship
finally we know
wad we had been doing is wrong coming with some right
finally we know
wad we are supposed to do on our next step
are we going to just stop laidat?
are we going to go on further?
are we going to ignore wad others say?
are we going to take more advice?
all i i noe is we are moving on~
finally i saw the light in our sister ship
i dunno when will the day comes that will makes us go back again
but i really wanna give last try
just once will do!
for our hard earn sistership
we are going to celebrate our anniversary for the following 10 - 20 years n so on.
Lets JIA YOOUS !! =)
Douu`Bann
YYY
im lOving iiu .
4:21 PM
Tuesday, October 07, 2008
finally we got a chance to meet up and
talk talk talk
thanks for your care and concern
ride me to the nearest 7-eleven
back to my house nearby
ate the ice cream
drink the un-opened yakult
pour out my everything
im more better now
thanks for your ears.
eu nv failed to hear my worries
and still a really good friend - the most special one
did i hurt you in anywhere?
i hope not.
thanks to you - Mr Turtle!
YYY
im lOving iiu .
6:12 PM
Monday, October 06, 2008
sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through?
im no longer the simple n innocent gal anymore.
i've go over my own limits.
Friends have to change their opinions towards me.
im no longer the old kexin.
but a changed person which i myself cant accept at all !
wad am i supposed to do?
im LOST !
really lost.
i seems to have stuck
i dunno which road should i go now.
everything is happening too fast.
i wish i cud go back.
but the fact is stopping me
there is full of bacteria within me which i cant face
have we ever think of the consequences?
i wish i cud hide from you.
i didnt noe why.
im just afraid to face you.
maybe facing you
you will remind me of what happen once again
facing her
i feel so much guilty
how will she feels when she came to noe about it?
i've let her down
really down
im disappointed in myself to have blind myself deeply
R E G R E T ~
LEAVE ME ALONE
YYY
im lOving iiu .
7:49 PM
Friday, September 19, 2008
i understand im losing everything around me
but had anyone tried standing in my situation to think?
eu wud only assume n assume n assume
and im tired of explaining explaining n explaining
im losing..
hu really cares?
there is never forever love,
no forever friends,
no forever enemies..
true uh?
i started believing too.
eu may say im the one hu cause all this to happens
i've no rights to say no.
i've nothing to say too.
i decide not to explain myself
wad should i say is..
eu dun understand me well..
i dun understand eu too...
everything will be over soon...
S M I L E ..
YYY
im lOving iiu .
4:00 AM
Thursday, September 11, 2008
The first 20 list is OUT !!! =))
1. Zhi Hao
2. Kok Wah
3. Kok Soon
4. Serena
5. Yan Ping
6. Lester
7. Cash
8. Ke Jing
9. Fanaa
10. Kai Sin
11. Ju Yee
12. Xin Yee
13. Mummy
14. Ah yi
15. Divana
16. Kent
17. Alvin
18. Ahh Bann
19. Wei Yan
20. Eric
so, which number are you? are you on the list. hahaas. =))
anyway, thanks for the wishes everyone !! Loves eu all lahhs .
YYY
im lOving iiu .
3:56 AM
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
hahaas. counting down to my birthday...
going to turn 19 lor !!! Yeahhs~ =))
hu will be the first 20 to wish me lehhs?
hahaas. ill tell eu in my next post .
hope urs do turn out in the first 20 list yar? =))
Loves to me !!! <3
YYY
im lOving iiu .
10:28 PM
met up with alica today.
shopping at tampines mall.
hahaas. Ladies day.
seems very long nv see her le.
Missing her.
Chatted alot.
chat bout lifes,future husband/boyfriends,guys,friends,
just anything lar.
she asked wad, den i answered wad.
i asked wad, she oso answered wad.
LOLs.
Gotta noe a great news from her too.
Her baby is a GIRL !
wow! im the god-mother alrights.
hahaas. i have daughter liao lor.
saw the scanning pic.
wee~ CUTE lar !
bot 3 baby clothes for my tiny baby girl which is coming out next year.
hmms.... hahaas.
when will we meet up again lehhs? =)
well~ for my M'sia trip..
hmms....
was tiring lar.
travel n visit, travel n visit.
didnt get to shop at all lor!!! >.<
learn quite alot of things during this trip too.
i saw a better view of
kin-ship, relationship and friendship.
cousins one by one getting married.
some married to a useless husband but won families
some married to a good husband but lose familes.
was kinda heartache actually.
some poor families may seems poor,
but their simple life makes them happy.
having dinner with them under the kampong house
got jia de wen nuan
the laughter n everything
although i dun understand wad they are talking about (Tamil language)
but i can feel the warm lar. =)
found my 'long-lost sister'.
was so so... happy lar.
took foto with her n gave her a big hug
and i cried
maybe its been years since i saw her.
if im not wrong the last time i saw her is when im 5 years old.
now, she n i had grown up.
and wad susprised me is she is married.
but ... hearing her story was.... heart pain lar...
Sigh!
Alot more to go... better to say lar...
write like got alot lehhs.
Ah ha!
got take a couple of pics. will post it when i got all the photos
and provided i have the time laaaaaaaa.......... =))
LOLs.
everything will goes on smoothly..
S M I L E ^^v
YYY
im lOving iiu .
1:21 AM
Ramdoms _____
It's so hard to act so indifferent
as if it doesn't hurt
as if it doesn't matter
as if it no longer ache
as if it no longer bleeds
the wedding is just another ceremony
the vows is just some other wordings
the love is just another feeling
and what's left is just memories
A photo is still a photo
what's left is just memories
you don't feel the pain,
you don't feel the happiness
it only protrays what's been captured at the very moment
and the sad thing is, it's only momentary it doesn't last
or rather, nothing last forever
You can never ever feel the pain , deep down
Letting go, is just another form of happiness
YYY
im lOving iiu .
12:30 AM
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
everything started to change.
everyone started to change.
hu really remains the same?
hu is the culprit to destroy everything?
hu is the culprit to hurts everything?
everything is gone ..
YYY
im lOving iiu .
3:58 AM
Sunday, August 03, 2008
i noe im a substitute.
im actualy someone eu feel like having fun with only.
im actually a burden to eu.
now den i noe eu are using me all along.
have eu ever really care for me?
have eu ever care for my feelings?
eu noe ill get upset after that but
eu are still doing it to me.
i tot at least im ur loved partner
but i was wrong!
Totally wrong!
its OK!
ill take things easy.
i hope eu would bother me no more
ill not bother eu too.
i wont let nature take its course
but to stop all the doings n feelings n care
i had towards eu
eu are just cheating me!
Stop taking advantage of me
Live ur life!
eu seems to be a two face person.
is it?
ur actions to me seems so.
im going to stop everything
everything will be over.
i cant stand anymore!
im sorry for my harsh words.
im just voicing out my unhappiness
Pardon me!
Dun ask me hu am i refering to.
Eu shud noe it clearly urself!
im not going to treat eu differently
ill still treat eu the same i used to be
i wont be too obvious towards eu.
just as i said in my very previous post.
eu will be gone soon
and yes
indeed its true
why is it happening not the way i want to be?
its really complicated now.
too complicated.
Arghhs!
this few days had been thinking of him
i dun understand why either
he just came in
thinking of the days we first met
shaking hands
eye contact
and everything
yes! im missing him suddenly.
Sigh!
whats going on in me!
YYY
im lOving iiu .
8:18 PM
Saturday, July 26, 2008
is it true that money can change everyone's attitude?
is it true that money can win over relationship, friendship or kinship?
to me, its NO !
but why the things that is happening around like telling me the answer is YES?
is money really that important?
im lazy to blog liaoos lahhs. Nights !
Sigh!! =((
YYY
im lOving iiu .
2:41 AM
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Went Vivo City and done it with Panda
before editing ... =)) CUTE !!!
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After editing... NICE !!! =D
Mickey n Minnie 's POSTER !!!
YYY
im lOving iiu .
6:03 AM
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Ramdom Pics. =)
Nana bot me this Mushroom Shoe!
Isn't it CUTE? !!! I LOVE it man!
Taking during Min's B'dae
Ping n Min
Ping n Min
Ping n Xian Hao
Ahhbann n Ping
YYY
im lOving iiu .
1:50 AM
Saturday, July 19, 2008
went check up a few days back.
nothing serious at all. - phew~
Low blood pressure
heart not beating regurlarly
overall is OKs! =))
Thanks God!
Gotta noe this shocking news from my sis.
my DAD is coming back!
Oh my god!
heart attack man!
im not saying i dun wish him to come back
but is becos my Motor Lesson hasnt update AT ALL !!!
oh my god!
how am i going to answer my dad.
i sure kena scold until very jialat if he comes to noe bout this.
den confirm will push me to quit my job once again!
Arghhs~
the obstacles infront of me is too tough!
i can hardly breathe!
i dunno where my stand are.
i dunno where am i now
i seems to be stuck in the middle of the road being horn by alot of cars
im scared of the horns
i dunno which way to go
im seriously lost
can someone please give me a hand?
im glad i hold back my tears once again
but...
my heart is aching ..
the questions eu asked me
i admit i turn dumb
im really v frustrated
i dunno which step shud i go without hurting anyone
did i do anything wrong?
what really goes wrong?
i dun understand!
can i choose to go back to the starting point?
everything is happening too fast!
everyone's actions towards this situation is weird
i dunno how to react
so i chosen to carry a smile to hide over everything
is this the correct way?
hey people!
cud eu please stop forcing me to do this n that?!
im really confused by ur words to me!
can i just be a normal me?
can eu just stop pressing me?
can i be myself?
can i just be a simple kexin?
ur steps to me gives me me a lot of weight
can i throw away some?
i cant hold or accept at all!
im worried!
im scared!
im fear!
im LOST!
im being controlled by eu!
cud eu just let me be myself freely?
can i?
i appreciated the things eu had done for me!
Yes! i did said 'Wu Liao~' !
but.. do eu think thats wad i really felt?
how am i going to react?
eu are good to me.
i know!
Arghhs~
forget it!
at least i know eu dun understand me AT ALL !!!
take it as i dun give a damn!
take it as im taking everything for granted!
take it as im just a idiot!
Just get LOST !!!
i hate myself thoroughly!!!
i dun even feel like explaining!
just continue ur misuderstanding!
im sick of it!
YYY
im lOving iiu .
3:06 AM
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Ramdom Pics Taken in June.
Opps! i noe its too Late. =x
Me, Lip Teng , Na Na - Twist
Chi Ho, ME, Lip Teng - Cheese*
GateWay Mates - Office or Class Photo? =x
More Pics coming soon.....
Wait wait wait
Wait Long Long ~
GateWay Mates - Office or Class Photo? =x
More Pics coming soon.....
Wait wait wait
Wait Long Long ~
YYY
im lOving iiu .
6:02 AM
im suddenly so LOST !
i need someone to guide me through...
i seems to have handle my things in an unproper ways
will it hurts someone in the end?
or its actually inevitable?
i duno!
i seriously HATE hurting people
this isnt wad i want!
my simple wish is just to see people around me be HAPPY
will it be grant?
in the past
i used to have a guardian angel - xian hao
does it still exist ?
can i still call eu anytime i like?
can i still chit chat with eu below my house till im running late for work?
can i still play tennis with eu?
can i still eat ajisen with eu?
can i still have my breakfast together in my house with eu?
can i still meet eu up for shopping?
can i still go to eu when im down?
can i still go cycling with eu?
can i still ... ...?
izzit still available?
somehow i feel we are drifting apart le...
Yes! eu are the friend that understands me most.
eu are the only one that can stand my attitude
eu are the only one that i had choose to TRUST
eu are the only one that will rush down all the way immediately to find me when im troubled
eu are the only one that will get worried for me in ANYTHING
i duno why...
i suddenly feel...
eu are leaving me soon..
or im leaving eu?
am i thinking too much?
or indeed eu are leaving?
did somethings go wrong somewhere? im LOST !
Men is a selfish creatures.
they wud only like to take possession of wad they like
but nv think of how the other party feel
or the consequences.
Or ... Only some of them?
-saw this line from a drama, seems quite true. isnt it?
im sorry to say im hiding something from eu!
im sorry to say the time isnt ripe to say yet!
maybe ...
i dunno...
am i ready?
or not?
the past scar in me had not left yet
im still scared!
im still not trusting ur words to me
i started to suspect too
i cant bring myself to commit thoroughly - im sorry
the hurts in me is really too much..
Yes! im strong enuff to withold the pain before
but it takes me a long long time..
do eu think the hurts had gone?
NO! for sure i can tell eu, it hadnt gone!
or i shud said the hurts had turn into hatred
and the trust for guys is NO MORE ?
the day i Lost him - 21 March 2008
i tot i wud not fall in love again
i tot i wud wait for him
i tot i wud make him love me once again
i tot after all i had done, he wud at least turn back
i tot after him, there wont be the next one
i tot without him, my life will be totally black n white
i tot without him, i cant go on
Now...
thinking of it..
i shud say i find myself foolish..
or i shud say at least i learn to fall down n stand up again?
i admit at least im strong enuff to go through all this alone
im gonna swear to myself,
ill treat myself more better den anyone else
i wont let anyone beat me down
i wont get hurts by anyone
i will be strong!
i will be independent!
Live For Yourself !
Smile For Yourself !
Love For Yourself !
Care For Yourself ! - Kexin =))
YYY
im lOving iiu .
5:00 AM
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
indeed i have to say eu are an irritating fella !
can eu please at least grow up?
eu are not young anymore
stop all those childish thinking alrights?
having those unlucky things happening around eu
it was only the cause of eu
not ME hu cause it!
cud eu please wake up?
knock knock!
bang the wall please!
stop going around telling people
ur unlucky days are the cause of me
when actually i DIN do anything!
eu are really a "GOOD" guy man!
in front of me telling me how nice of me to do this n that
den behind me complain this n that
excuse me
did i block ur way?
or izzit i owe eu
yar! please!
Get LOST !
i dun even noe why i get to noe eu
its really a WASTE of my time
looking at ur SMSes
noeing ur news
or wadeva
anyway, im not going to WASTE any more of my time
or feelings on eu
thats too pathetic!
CONGRATS to ALICA n WEN KANG ! =))
ROM - 12 July
im really very happy for them lohhs
n i can say wen kang is indeed a great guy for taking the responsible.
Alica must stay happy always n must be xing fu oh!
i gave them a susprised when they check in into my hotel
they appreciated it
and i find my susprised for them so sweet
somehow i wish to get married soon lohhs.
hmms... sweet as honey..... so swit ~ LOVES !! <3
went out with xian hao on 1o July
to Bugis den walk to suntec have our dinner
we ate pepper lunch!
Wow! first the meal is so Yummy..
but... eat until cold liao not nice liao lohhs..
we dedicate song for each other.
but wait too long lahhs.
den missed the song xian hao dedicate for me
den when the song i dedicate had played
we din notice at all
till played until half way den notice lohhs
den in the end
xian hao dedicate again
den we find a place seat down chit chat n
wait wait wait lohhs... =))
LOLs
On our way home,
xian hao told me,
'im v worried bout eu'
well~ i can understand he is worried
ill get hurts once again
that is why he is so protective towards me
Thanks Xian Hao - Mr Turtle ! =))
Sigh! talk bout me now...
Recently din have a good sleep at all lohhs
been having headache lately
dun really have much appetite
wad happen?!
cause of this is THINK TOO MUCh? !
hahaas
i dunno oso. LOLs.
Well! im KEXIN mahhs.
im strong de OK! ill be FINE de lohhs =))
YYY
im lOving iiu .
12:09 AM
Sunday, July 13, 2008
why do people only care bout how they are feeling?
have we ever thought of standing in other people's shoes?
why do people always never treasure the things that is around us,
den when the things had gone,
we would start to complained
or said the person had changed, etc?
i dunno izzit im standing in ur shoes.
but seriously i can feel the pain eu are enduring.
i so much wish to help out.
but i dunno where to start.
Maybe...
just act as normal as i can
and chat normally
n treat as if nothing really did happened.
izzit better this way?
i so much wish to say NO to her!
but it seems too hard.
am i helping eu or
i dun wanna see another crybaby?
i really wish to STOP hearing anything from eu!
eu can really affect my mood.
Cud eu stop harrassing into my life?
STOP all the sms-ing or talk to me.
i dun want to have ANYTHING to do with eu.
even a simple wishes,
i DUN WAN too!
i really hope i dunno eu AT ALL !
Yes! the fear feeling is back again.
i thought after hidden it,
it will gone.
but i was wrong.
how come?
i thought after making the first move
to talk to eu,
voice out to eu,
shared with eu,
i wud at least overcome
the fearful-ness eu gave me.
But NO!
it did not went away,
but actually come back as n when it likes.
sometimes i feel like avoiding,
but its too obvious.
is it because eu are too scary?
or ur actions shocks me too much?
are eu supposed to treat me laidat?
or becos eu find that im an easy gal to deal with?
or becos its challenging?
i dunno!
Shud i trust eu?
or just go on blindly?
i need an explanation from eu!
but, how am i going to open my mouth to eu?
everything isnt right at all.
i need some space people.
breathe~ breathe~ breathe~ =))
YYY
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everything seems to go on smoothly or...
not smoothly as i think?
izzit the cause of me?
or the cause of everyone's reaction towards each other?
im not sure either?
eu said,
a person will meet 3 person in his / her life;
1st- someone eu really love
2nd- someone will love eu deep
3rd-the one that will hold ur hands till Forever
Have i met this 3 person?
Well! the answer is clear to me.
i've met the first one.
but the Second?
Have i met?
eu answered ' Yes! its HIM!'.
i was stunned!
Den i came back to sense and said
'Yar! its seems true! but really?'
im not sure either.
or maybe a few years down the road?
i tot everyone's r/s is diff in many ways
but yet i found out,
there's not much diff.
No matter wad ur age is
how old or how young are you
there isnt any different.
the diff is only how eu treat this r/s your way.
To say the truth, Yes!
indeed i had that special feeling for eu
but izzit bcos eu have some familiar points like him?
Den i mistook u as him?
i noe very clearly n i can really differentiate the both of eu
but what makes me whirl is when im with him
my mind is actually thinking of EU!
When im with eu
im free from all troubles
is this what we called the process of LOVE ?
Eu are the fishing rod n im the fish
eu are waiting for me to bite on ur food n catch me
but...
after catching me,
wud eu put me in a fish tank n take very good care?
or...
Bbq me n eat it up instead?
im really v whirl NOW!
Sometimes involving in a no outcome relationship
or no movement relationships seems really tiring
we can either choose to stay still or step forward
but have we ever think of the consequences behind it after our movement?
when people starts to gave up
we wud start complaining saying he/she isnt true to eu
but have we ever asked ourselves
did we gave him / her a chance?
we cant blame anyone but to accept the fact
that he / she had given up
by that time when eu feels regret,
izzit too late?
it seems hard to have a two-side LOVE yea?
agree with me?
Recently i just got to noe this person whom i noe
for quite a long time or maybe its short?
i actually seen another side of him
its really shocking to me!
Does it mean when eu are sad or angry,
we must follow the same feeling as eu?
Eu only noe BLAMING!
what's the point?
have eu ever tell urself to take a step backward n think?
what's the point of acting childish?
what's the point of showing sympathy in front of us?
Yes! we noe very clearly eu need love n an listening ear
we tried to be ur listening ear
we tried to care for eu more
we tried to consoled eu
we tried to give eu some advice
but haven we done enough?
i admit sometimes im abit pissed off by eu
everyone walk thru ur road before
there are alot more people going thru more high n low
den why are eu holding on to this feeling
trying to say 'im more worst den others!'
can i tell eu to stop doing all those
childish things with ur childish thinking?
im really sorry to say this
but i really hope
eu can understand wad's my intention.
Sigh! Continue again some other day.
One more hour to go and im going off to sleep.
working now.... hehees... =))
GOOD MORNING !!! ... Yawnzzzz....
YYY
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